Updated: Apr 20
"Breathe, believe, and battle.' My former coach, Troy Tanner, told us that before each match. Breathe-be in the moment. Believe-have faith that you can rise above it. Battle-you gotta be prepared to go for as long as it takes."
So yesterday I woke up to rain and I tried not to let the gray skies dictate my mood. For the most part, my day was “fine”. No tears and hope remained. But, today? Today is a completely new day. Sun. Warmth. Health. I was able to enjoy about 20 minutes of sunbathing until I realized I may end up with a sunburn. But I had my face looking up to the sun. Eyes closed. Warmth wrapped around me. The squiggles I usually see when my eyes closed actually moved to the music in the background. I was able to relax to the sound of my water fountain.
Perfect time. And what could be better to top that off? Of course, a glass of fresh lemonade. This was not my figurative glass of lemonade, This was the real deal. Crushed ice. Sun. Music. The only thing missing was some sand underneath my toes.
But, I am breathing. And I believe. And I battle. I believe in my capability to recover, even as I battle my Type A need for achievement. And today, I won that battle. I sat in the sun. Relaxed. Continuing on the path to not only hip health, but the path to showing grace towards myself. It is okay if I have glitchy hips. I am a yogi who is able to sit in the present.
Today, I will not worry about tomorrow. I will celebrate my thoughts and feelings of today as I sip on my glass of lemonade that really was made out of lemons.
Go find your breath. Once you do, believe and battle with whatever struggle you have.